404 is not an error

In my journey to understand the self, sometimes I feel like Sherlock Holmes.  Not that I feel masterful or skillful, but that I a forever discovering what the self is not, and that what remains, however unlikely, is it.

Yesterday I received a great compliment.  I am AWESOME!
Today I dropped the ball on a meeting for work.  I am HORRIBLE!
Last night I was unskillful in parenting my youngest.  I am HORRIBLE!
Also last night I was very skillful in parenting my youngest.  I am AWESOME!

Looking at my entire life in this way it gets pretty comical actually.  Going back and forth between awesome and horrible is very tiring.  I know there is a better way.  In the midst of this roller-coaster I breathe, and I can taste it.  Although I have heard words to explain it, it is in breathing the moment that I sense my pure potential.  In each of these moments I hold the potential for awesome, horrible and everything in between.  Present in the moment, the intuitive action meets the need.

No matter my intention, as I stumble I can be confident I will stumble again, to one side or the other.  When I hit the ground, it hurts.  When I fall on others, they are hurt.  When I help, suffering is eased.  With all these possibilities and potentials present in each moment, I vow to move forward with grace and compassion, cleaning up my messes as I go.

404 error  Self not found.